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jess day.
29 March 2012 @ 06:50 pm
I'm realizing how truly unhappy I am with my life and myself.

I have hit bad moments in my life but now I'm a goner. My parents are never stop fighting, I don't have friends at work or even outside of work. I'm sick of my own face. I started to not look in mirrors because why would I want to see how ugly I am?

I know people care about me online but I feel more like a burden than a real friend to them. Everyone deserves someone better than me. 

I remember when I felt love and happiness when I came online but now I feel like a pest and lonely feelings normally take over myself. 

i'm not killing myself but i should leave everything that I have to be myself. everyone's life will be so much better.
Current Mood: rejectedrejected
jess day.
08 February 2012 @ 07:05 pm
Within the last three months, I have lost my aunt and my grandpa.

I can't even put it in words how I feel right now. I'm not a strong person to start with so having two people who were there when I was growing up die without any warnings. My aunt died of liver failure and my grandpa's heart stopped working when he was on his way to work. 

I haven't seen my mom is over two weeks because she has been in Washington DC working on my grandpa's house so I'm taking care of the house and the kids. 

I realized today that I'm not dealing with it at all. I numbed myself from thinking about my aunt's death and now it's harder to do that for  my grandpa. Most of the day I feel like I got stabbed and I'm dealing with the pain.

This is truly the hardest thing I have ever dealt with.
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
jess day.
03 January 2012 @ 05:24 pm
  1. I have walked two miles in the last days. (I'm so proud of myself.)
jess day.
03 January 2012 @ 04:50 pm
  1. having a laughing fit with the kids at the store.
jess day.
01 January 2012 @ 06:14 pm
(I'm going to list one or more thing(s) a day that I'm grateful for in the year 2012)
  1. Seeing We bought a zoo with Mattie and Courtney. It was free because of me and them buying three dvds.
  2. 12 cent ice cream cones at Sonic
  3. Realizing that I need to make Comic Con about what I want to do and not what others think I should do.
jess day.
12 November 2011 @ 05:22 pm
 Less than two days ago, my aunt passed away. She died from liver failure. She left behind five children and a big family. She did things that were bad but deep down, we all knew that she loved us. She died way before her time. There will always be a hole in our hearts because of her. Forever missed. 
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(my mom and her sister/my aunt. Their mom took the photo)   
Current Mood: sadsad
jess day.
09 November 2011 @ 02:59 pm
My mom's sister is dying. The same woman who has cost my family a lot but still my mom's flesh and blood and Courtney's mom is going to die.

I don't know how to feel. I'm upset for my mom and Courtney but, idk...her sister has done a lot to me and people I love. I feel like a heartless bitch for that...

I just heard from my dad that they are pulling the plug soon.

I'm done. 
Current Mood: scaredscared
jess day.
01 August 2011 @ 05:16 pm
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